~Anoli

A ne month in the new year... new realizations... new priorities all adds up to be the NEW and IMPROVED ME!

i was so down just a few hours ago, it seemed everything fell apart and i didnt know what i could do with myself, how long it will be before i could actually leave this little world i made myself for me alone in my bed.. but everything is fine now.. and im so greatful and hopeful and optimistic and filled with new feelings, that i don't yet know how to express or what to do with

tearing to "my happy ending" by avril lavigne... explains everything i feel right now... it's a shame... left with nothing, not even a friendship

The weekend is finally here. I've been waiting for sooooo long for the weekend after my SAT when i can finally go out and relax, like i did during the summer... but there's so much school work to be done.. the terms ending.. so i guess it's best to focus on that for a couple more weeks

Today was DEFINETLY one of the worst days ive had in the past couple of years... all day in school things kept going wrong...

1.in the morning i forgot my absence note- i only realized it as i was stepping onto the train... so in every class when i came in the teachers gave off a negative vibe sinc ethey thought i was cutting on friday

2.i was unprepared(homework-wise).. there's so much stuff t do over the weekend and i really needed to spend the night last night talking to my baby.. it was definetly a needed conversation that straightened some things out i believe

3.i fell flat on my butt in soccer, i laughed it off, but it's not a typical thing for me(i'm not that good but at least i didn't fall until now)

4.my product design teacher wouldnt except my design for a letter unfortunately.. i spent so much time making it...

5.UGH!.. if things couldnt go any more wrong, i tripped on the stairs running to classbecause for some reaon i thoght there was another step and i stepped too much, it felt like my knee popped out my socket... and yet i still had to run to class so i wouldnt get a grade deduction. Despite my best efforts, i came late by about 10 seconds and i was forced to stand outside withthe door shut in my face for at last 5 minutes and then get some dirty looks from the teacher when she finally allowed me in (This is so damn unusual for me... Teachers usually tend to like me... whats so different this semester..for the first time in my life i think im even in danger of failing... )

6.On the train home, it seemed like one person in particular was purposely mentioning things that were aimed at just gradually rising my temper

What in the world is going on with me?

Although my day was absolutely terrible... it ended pretty well.. spoke to my special someone for quite a while... i just hope things will go in the right direction for us.. i definetly miss speaking to him... hopefully when school gets back on track we'll have more time to do so